While My Face Smiles

My heart screams with pain while my face smiles
I retreat into hectic routine
But the act only postpones my trials
It is the pain that’s real though perhaps not seen

And life is not normal though to others it may seem
I struggle on tired and numb
Dazed.  I still wish this was but a dream
I couldn’t imagine the emptiness losing that special someone

Why?!  She was so alive, so young
Missing her stops me cold in my tracks
Hiding from the pain why I stay on the run
But my tears reveal the facade’s many cracks

Mama, Come Back…

   -gl-